10:24pm. April 2nd 2014. I just said goodnight to a beautiful new bouquet of flowers that were delivered to me today. They made me smile. About to head to bed.
How I’m feeling: A little frustrated. There is so much I want to get done, but the days have been flying by so quickly and I get tired so god damn easily. Today I had to take another long nap in the middle of the day.
A couple of days ago, I went for a check-up at my optometrist and I learned why my eyes have been really dry lately. It’s the chemotherapy. Apparently, my eyeballs will increasingly continue to be really dry as I go through my chemotherapy cycles. Interesting, eh? He prescribed me with these daily eyedrops (that were super expensive by the way) but should help relieve me. Check out the packaging. Doesn’t it look like astronaut food? It kind of makes me giggle every single day.
I know myself well enough to know that the best way for me to maintain a positive outlook on things (even when things are downright S%$!ty – Ex. Having cancer) is to look for the educational component of the experience. And so there it is. I’ve learned that chemotherapy is going to suck the moisture out of my eyeballs as well – as if my itchy skin wasn’t bad enough. The other day I made myself bleed from scratching so hard. Yikes.
To help make things a little easier on myself, I figured I should start wearing glasses more often. For those of you who don’t know, I’m pretty much blind without my contact lenses. I wear them always – if and when I want to function. Today one of the new pairs of glasses I ordered arrived in the mail. Here, I’ll put them on right now:
Not bad, eh? I have some sweet wood texture ones coming my way soon.