5:00pm. May 13th 2014.
How I’m feeling: Not so great. My body temperature has been off all day and I’ve been low on energy. This morning, I woke up to a sweat soaked pillow and bedsheets. I’m sad because I had to cancel some plans I had today as a result. I’m also a little worried because I’m not feeling as strong as I’d like to be and it’s only 6 days away from my next chemo treatment. There is so much I want to do – a big one being getting back to some friends whom have reached out – but I don’t have the energy to do it.
If you know me well, you know that over the past 5 years – dance has been a big part of my life. I turn to it for therapy, to release, for my “me-time”, to get a serious sweat out and for when I just want a good time :). It really does keep me sane especially when the rest of my world gets crazy. It’s been so difficult to not be able to turn to it through what will likely be the roughest and most challenging chapter in my life. My low and unpredictable energy level and compromised immune system has not allowed me to dance comfortably – and it breaks my heart.
Over the past 2 years (since 2012), I’ve been part of the High Heels High Hopes Performance & Training Group and through it I have gained so much. I may even go as far to say that HHHH saved my life. I’ve gained many friendships, have been able to sleep much better and am overall – a much happier person. On top of that, I’ve also adopted a whole other level of confidence in myself, my dance skills, my learning abilities and my body image.
When I was in the hospital, a couple of my HHHH sisters came by to visit me and a whole bunch others bombed me (in a good way) with supportive, encouraging and positive messages, phone calls and emails.
I have been overwhelmed with love, support and encouragement over the past 2 months from hundreds of you. I am also really touched to have had some of you personally share how you feel about me and that through my experiences, how your outlook on life, love and relationships have changed. As if being great friends, dropping off care packages and keeping me company through these tough times wasn’t enough – some of you have signed up to volunteer with or have donated to Princess Margaret Hospital after visiting me there while I was admitted and taking the time to learn about my experiences with them so far. And for that I cannot be more thankful.
Many of you have been asking me what else you can do to help me through these tough times – and I’ve been trying to figure out ways for you to do so. Here is a way for you to help out:
JULY 2014 ‘NO GOOD WOMAN LEFT BEHIND’ EVENT
At the end of July, the incredible head honcho of HHHH Carla Catherwood and a handful of other good friends will be putting on a fundraiser event appropriately titled “No Good Woman Left Behind” in Toronto, ON! For me, it’s going to be a night to celebrate how this cancer has got nothing on me especially with an army of supporters behind me. It’s also a chance to provide more awareness of Lymphoma and how cancer affects young adults. The evening will include some stellar acts including an encore performance of the HHHH High Heel Revolution show (I won’t be able to perform in it this time 😦 ) – and a line up of some seriously awesome special guest performers.
I don’t have extended medical insurance and so event proceeds will go towards helping to subside my medical and personal costs that I will be enduring over my treatment and healing period. I am so fortunate that the in-hospital tests, scans, lab work, chemotherapy and radiation treatments are covered by OHIP. However, everything outside of that is not. This includes my cocktail of drugs I’m taking – including steroid meds that work with chemo to help shrink my 10X10cm mass in my chest, all of my naturopathic medications that help me with my organs that are being compromised from chemotherapy, the rental of my hospital bed and the costs of my diet change. I didn’t realize how expensive all of this would be. It’s not something I anticipated. But really, how could I have?
The event date and full details have not yet been announced as the team is currently still in the planning stage but other than attending, here are some ways you can help:
JOIN THE TEAM
Right now, we are looking for someone to lead each of the following areas:
- PR & Media
- Live and Silent Auction
If you’d like to lend us a hand, click here.
Have something awesome you’d like to donate? We will be having a silent and live auction. And so we are accepting donations! Think you can help out? Click here.
SPREAD THE WORD
Share this link!
Other than that, if you’d like to be notified when event details are released click here and I’ll make sure to personally shoot you on over an email!
P.S. Hopefully this event will also be a celebration for great progress on me beating this cancer’s ass! If all goes to plan – I will be done chemotherapy by the time this event rolls around. I will definitely need to celebrate and I’ll want to do it with you by my side.
UPDATE: We have a date and location confirmed. The No Good Woman Left Behind event will be at The Virgin Mobile Mod Club on July 30th!
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