1:00am. June 11th 2014. Watching Orange Is The New Black Season #2. I’m off Grey’s Anatomy. It became too emotional for me – and hit a little too close to home when one of the main characters was diagnosed with the “Big C”. I’ve got my own very real cancerous plot to live through. After this post, I’m going to meditate and then sleep.
How I’m feeling: Sad. All day, I’ve wanted to just go for a walk – but I have been so low on energy. I’m not feeling like the best friend, dog mother, auntie, colleague, etc, etc. right now – even though I know that right now, I only have one role to play. To be my own best friend and to nurture no one but myself. It is much easier said than done.
Nothing much but this today:
I just want to dance, go back to work, be a great friend to those whom have really been her for me through this, be a great partner and have my lively energy back. And even though I know that this chapter is not over with (well, it’s tough to predict when it will be) and therefore the above may change, I just really want to live and move forward with everything that I have learned so far.